Love is all around

when i first fell in love i thought (and i still do) that its the best thing ,the best feeling
that one could feel...the exhilliration ,the unending excitement ,the untiring hours after
hours that you could think about one person ,how a sentence said by your loved one can go
round and round in your head for days ...what other drug or feeling would make a sane human feel like this ?i dont think any can claim such an effect.....the phase came when all the excitement started weaning;like everything in the world that comes to an end; feelings also have the same fate....as every thing that ends leaves room for the beginning of something new....this leaves room for a little bit of suffering,when you want things to go your way ,when you want others to say things you wish to hear,when you want them to choose you as you have chosen them and want them to think to cherish your love like you cherish theirs...but they dont necessarily do all those things.the easiest thing at that time is than; to blame ,to think they didnt deserve you ,to hate them so that it doesnt hurt much when you have to leave them.its hard for us to take their reasons as being genuine ,if they are actually giving a reason it just doesnt look good enough in our eyes for which they should leave something like this ,that which we thought was amazing ,that which we thought was unique.in fact the mistake is our own as well..no matter how much we think we are ready to give inn to love ...at extreme occasions we are ready to sacrifice our lives as well....what we are not ready to give is understanding ;real understanding for the choices of our loved ones;to see it with their eyes how important those things could actually be for them ,if not for us...and give them the understanding of going after them instead of hanging on to what we think is important.i think through this i am talking more to myself than any one else...cuz i didnt have the understanding either;i didnt have the courage to really love the person for the way he is...for what he likes his life to be like ,for what he wants for his life ,for what he cant give up for me ....and for what he cant change in his personality ,for what he cant commit ,and for the things he couldnt understand cause that is just the way he is.so what did i really want from love ...did i want both of us to be happy by getting what only i wanted or i wanted the conventional stuff from love ...marriage and kids etc?why didnt i want hapiness for both ,why wasnt i happy with what ever i had,..why did i think love could only be in a particular way and rest all was not love and always emphasized on the same as well?i feel ...love was all around me ...he loves me ,though i accused him that he didnt, all the time ...he doesnt even try to convince me now !just that he cant love in a conventional way ,he couldnt want n be happy with what i wanted...and i respect that ,i respect him for making his choices....and not giving up in front of mine cuz may be this sacrifice would have lead us to a point in life where we both would repent....he never tried making me let go of what i wanted ..he never demanded anything from me ,for which i use to reason with that i have already submitted completely ,what else could he want..but that was not true...he also could have asked me for a lot of things and sacrifices...but he didnt...so i say love is all around us..just not necessarily in the shape that we want to see it in
...it has its own shape and form and we have to recognize and appreciate it that way!!